Friday, January 14, 2011
i dont like the feeling i'll have after i scold somebody. ):kinda scolded the gz peeps today. for the second time alr. i really dun wan to scold them! but i couldnt help it.
i always feel guilty after scolding them, cos im afraid that they will feel that im unreasonable and pms-y. but i dont wan to be the kind of leader thats so nuah that he/she will let the members do whatever they want without any punishment of any kind when they did something wrong. but i dont want to be too strict and so serious about work also. i want to be the kind of leader that can be fun and playful at times but strict at other times. but its so hard! ): im afraid that i'll be known as the "arrogant and unreasonable president" after i graduate. i hate leaving bad impressions on ppl u noe. im trying my best now, but im wondering if im trying too hard.
i was so tired and having the crappiest mood after guzheng when i went to hg mall to meet my parents. i was waiting and daddy reached first. i talked to him about my scolding sessions and asked him if what i did was wrong. he gave me a pep talk and said that a good leader must be able to differentiate between work and play. he said a bunch of things thats so so true! it was very inspiring. i didnt noe that daddy has this side to him. we have always been the hi-dad-bye-dad kinda relationship, and today's heart-to-heart talk totally surprises me. ive always thought that daddy wouldnt understand but i didnt noe that he understands my feelings more than anyone else. and to think that i've actually been rude to him and was so lazy to help him do stuff in the past. i should be a better daughter. ):