Tuesday, October 26, 2010
i hate my mum sometimes seriously.she always tries to poke her nose into my life and trying to control it.
where i go, who i go out with, wad i have to do in sch, and even how i go out to meet my frens.
she have to comment and try to make me follow her wishes.
and shes so stubborn sometimes, she doesnt even realise that my suggestion is really better han hers.
she thinks that everything she does and say is right.
every single time she act this way i really have to hold it in and try not to flare up.
cos i dun wanna quarrel.
so i always end up appeasing her.
but sometimes its so hard!
i cant seem to hold it in any longer. shes getting really ridiculous.
in case she haven't notice, its MY life yea. not HERS. why is she trying to control it?
im no longer a 3 yr old kid u noe.
i can make my own decisions and i am old enough to make sensible decisions by myself.
its not like i will go do some illegal stuff or get cheated by somebody right?
all i want is to be by myself for a little while.
i can be independent, but she nv let me be.
yea, ppl will start saying that she is merely trying to provide u with suggestions and its all for ur own good.
but dun u tink its getting a bit too much?
ive never seen anybody else's mum being so overprotective of their child.
and i've come to be envious of other people.
not that i dun love my mum.
but sometimes, its really jus frustrating.
ugh. i dunnoe wad to tink anymore.
my life is so screwed up.
and to add on, ive always been trying to hide some stuff that i dun wan people to noe or ask about.
but do they really have to tok about it everytime?
like hello? i do have feelings. i do get affected. and yes, i don't like it when they ask me all those ques about my family, my appearance, my friends and my past.
will u like it if i keep trying to expose ur little secrets thats not meant to be known?
can't everybody jus accept the person in front of u, and dun ask them about anyting sensitive?
i often have to try to avoid answering such questions. to the point that i seem fake. or rude.
or i will have to make up an answer myself, which is not even the truth at all.
cos i dun wan ppl to noe the real reason.
i feel that they dun have to noe.
i dun wan to go the the extent where i have to key in an answer key sheet into my brain for all these stupid questions.
sometimes,
things are jus like that,
dun ask why.